WOW! And I say it louder.

I am struggling.

How will people view what I am about to do?

How will my mom take it?

How do I even tell her to begin with?

Are these feelings true?

Am I in love?

Or, am I just afraid to loose my special someone?

My life is turned upside down now.

This is a big leap.

And, I am afraid of heights.

Can I be a good husband?

Can I be a good father?

I don’t want to break your heart.

Lets hold hands and do this together.

I want to be your rock you can stand on.

And, I want you to be the caregiver for the rock.

Together forever.

These are my feelings.

Wow! I cannot believe its been over a year now.  I have enjoyed blogging these past 12 months, off and on. Yay me!

Went and saw District 9 last Thursday at midnight showing. Movie was pretty fantastic.  Almost felt real. As if this will happen in the near future.  Animations were spot on, the acting didn’t feel corny, and the aliens were pretty bad ass.

Oh, and The Guild released a great music video.

Well, I am now down to 2 major items, but sadly still need bp ._.

I got the best avatar item of the expansion today though. My trixy bracelet. I cannot wait to melt the other wizzy in guild. Still miffed about it a lil though. A silly troub thought he would bid me up cause he could.. what a fuck face. Oh well, bp in next few months…

edit: and good drops my earring and no dkp to use ._.

Oh, beautiful kite.
You fly just our of my reach.
The winds blowing you around.
I can feel you tug at the string in my hand.
Do I let you go?
Do you like me holding on to you?
Caring for you?
Making sure you don’t hit any trees?
Would you rather me let go and let you fly off into the wind?

Oh, beautiful kite, let me know.
Don’t tease me with your graceful movements in the air.
Wish I could reel you in and touch you.
Maybe, if you don’t want to fly away, when the winds die down.
Hope you at least enjoyed me tugging on your string.
My heart goes with you no matter what you decide.

Oh, beautiful kite, why won’t you just let me know.
I won’t be able to hold on forever….

I want a woman who is proud of who she is and doesn’t care what others think of her.

I want a woman that will steal my gum outta my mouth when we kiss.

I want a woman who understands, it’s ok to pee in the shower.

I want a woman that doesn’t mind wearing girl cloths once in awhile, ie skirt/dress/etc.

I want a woman that likes the idea of pouring gasoline on a cat, setting it on fire and watching it run around the neighborhood.

I want a woman that can let me sleep under the covers, and that doesn’t require it to be pitch black in the room to sleep.

I want a woman that is close to her family.

I want a woman who wears her hair long.

I want a woman to respect that I need my alone time just as much as she does.

I want a woman that appreciates at least ONE of my passions.

I want a woman that sometimes says teehee or other cute stuff.

I want a woman to steal food off my plate and let me be “mad” at her for it.

I want a woman that will make out in the rain together.

I want a woman to push me to be a better man for her.

I want a woman that is intelligent.

I want a woman that lets me pick out outfits for her to wear.

I want a woman that will miss not being held in my arms.

I want a woman who doesn’t smoke or do any drugs.

I want a woman that is honest with her feelings towards herself and to me.

I want a woman that trusts me fully, as I will return the same to her.


Damn, I am picky.


When you find the person who, not only appreciates your faults, but loves you because of them, you know you hit the jackpot.

Last night I finally got my defiler mythical, woot.  Was my 1st run through of VP with my defiler and I got to MT heal most of it (guild defiler main joined for Silverwing/Pharadar).  So, I got my mythical and Trak access!  The instance you have to do solo was interesting. Nothing like having 130k hp and soloing a 80×2.

HW has been a fun time.

Killing avatars that I only wished of ever killing is very satisfying. When we killed Ykesha it was a great moment too. Only 2 more mobs to go to beat all of this expansion. weeeeeeee.

Finally, a mage bp dropped too, grats to the most patient person (or wasteful) in guild (not me).  Haven’t gotten to see it in action yet.  I usually outparse him by 2-5k, And from a few parses I have seen he will be maybe 1-2k below me. When I get mine I will be untouchable! As I already am 1 or 2 ZW (damn assissin), and the other wizzy is in top 5.

From a few weeks ago.

The other day was interesting. Was at the bank doing my daily deposit… and one of the gals there was asking what our hours were. She then offered me a job as a teller at the bank! I guess rumor has it I am a great employee and they would be blessed to have me there. It made me feel very good that someone wanted me to work for them, and for them to ask me directly I felt honored.  Of course I declined though. I don’t want to go back to work at a place where my hours are very rigid.  I like my flexible schedule I have now.

They ended up having someone transfer from another bank to this one. I heard she was available too… bleh

Keep having this feeling like I should settle down and get me a woman, but I am happy where I am at now.  Just, everyone one I know has a significant other. Feel like I am going tomiss an opportunity if I don’t act now.

So torn sometimes.

>late post<

Went to see Star Trek (day of opening). It was a great movie. Was not disappointed at all.  The way this movie was done, I cannot wait to see more of this story unfolding with the new cast. I am not a treky or anything, but I think everyone can/will/did enjoy this movie.