I know nothing in life is easy, and nothing is handed to you. You have to work hard for what you have and what you want in life. All my life, I have just let things happen to me, and so far everything has worked out in the end. But I am ready to take control and make it happen now.
I am about to quit something I love, something I am good at, something that takes up a lot of my time. I have made a name for myself and people look up to me. I am the best of the best, but I cannot do it anymore with my new path I want to take in life. I have support and I am willing to make this sacrifice. Maybe later on I will come back to you. I know I will crave you, like an addiction. I have to keep strong.
Life always seem to do this to me. When I am going good something bad happens, well not just something, but everything. All at once. The opposite happens too, when everything is bad and wrong and miserable, I get a bunch of good things all at once. I made up my mind to change, and I have this new opportunity now. I also got offered another opportunity and now I have to make a choice between the two. Maybe I will just take a taste of the latter.
My first trip alone. My first time flying. My first time riding in a taxi. My fist time seeing the Atlantic Ocean. My first time being on the east coast.
The first 4 hours were amazing. The next 68 were horrible.
Well, I should have posted this on Sunday but ‘better nate than lever’ I guess…
So, was hanging with my mom and bro when we drove by this in Bend. I just had to take a pic. Was hilarious.
Like they do it on the discovery channel?
Wonder if the neighbors complain.
Later that night, best friend, bro, and I went out to have fun. We decided to go to Starz. But before going we knew we should prolly get a few drinks else where. We hit up Mcminemins and proceeded to drink. Round of AMF, then Tokyo Tea, then Black Opal, then tequila shots, and I stopped at that. I think they had another round of something else, maybe rum and cokes, no idea.
Next thing I remember is wanting to puke but walking a ways to the road and then being driven to Starz. Never did puke. At the door I remember trying to act not drunk as the bouncer checked IDs and such. I think we had a beer at Starz as well. Don’t remember much of being there.
I do remember walking to taco bell once we got home, and proceeded to walk through the drive though. No one answered us though as I think they close at 2 am. Thinking back on it, that was prolly the most hilarious thing I have done drunk. Anyways, we decided to get nachos at 7-11, and they were good! At home I think I passed out on the floor downstairs, but woke up in my bed upstairs. Crazy night.
When I was growing up I wanted to be a doctor. From kindergarten until about 4th grade. That’s when I found out I was squeamish and didn’t like the sight of blood, so that was nixed.
So, what did my (almost) 6 yr old sister in kindergarten say when I asked her what she wanted to be when she grew up? She said she wanted to work at McDonalds or DairyQueen… I about fell off my chair. /shocked… She then said she wanted to be a trophy wife and quit work once she was married. I mean, I like McDonalds too, but not my dream job. And, where did she get this from? Really? I hope she figures something else out soon.
Just shows how ghetto Madras is sometimes. :/ I keep telling my parents to move from there. I would even be ok with (gasp) Prineville. Get away from the meth/teen pregnancy capitol of Oregon.
Yesterday was fun. Celebrated my sis’s 6th birthday swimming. Was like, 12 girls and 4 boys all screaming and playing.
There is this one boy my sis likes (at least I think so), which I think is a year younger than her. While we were in a party room I saw this boy grab my sis’s hand and led her to the corner… My mom saw this and quickly grabbed her and asked her what she was doing. To which she replied “He was going to tell me a secret”. I had a good laugh. I always tease her asking who her boyfriend is, but she says she doesn’t have one. Highlight of the day though.
Happy Birthday goes out to my lil sis, which is tomorrow!
Wow. Last night was… Went and saw some local bands. They were decent. Ska bands, I think. Last one did a cover for one of my all time favorite songs; “Beer” by Reel Big Fish.
Was happy to see some old friends and hang out. One of them had brought a friend outside of our circle (so to speak) and her name was Julie. She was 5′ and about 15 years older than me and for some reason all over me. After 2 AMFs, 3 beers, and a rum and coke (in a 2 hour period) I was pretty drunk. I know I am a light weight but I was having fun.
I was asked if I would be able to take Julie home and I agreed. Though, I know there were other intentions behind it. As everyone was heading out Julie went to the bathroom (I think) so I waited for her… waited about 15 mins… looked around the scene and didnt see her. So, I decided in my head that maybe she left with the others and I headed out the door. After I got outside, I heard a lady in a not so happy mood talking on a cellphone and looked to see… it was her. In my drunken stooper I for some reason couldn’t turn my body towards her and ended up walking strait to my car. I feel bad and I am sorry.
I know that it would have ended up with some nookie or something but I am not a one night stand kinda guy and she was way older than me. I’m not against the age difference but if we had maybe gotten to know each other more and not been drunk I would have considered it. I am sure though, we would have had nothing in common… blonde bombshell + geek. As so far it was only a physical attraction.
Probably the last time I will see her, but if I get the chance I would atleast let her know what happened.
Well, it is literally tuesday, but for most it’s a “monday”. As the holiday just passed most people had monday off and are now enjoying their first day of the work week. Kinda weird. I am happy I dont have to be at work, though I wished I was. Human, being a creature of habit. Though breaking this habit for the time being has done some positive things.
Over the past few days I have taken it upon myself to really dig into things I want to do. Finished 2 books I have been reading. With about 15 more I want to read. Also, I have gotten in about 5-7 hours a day studying. Most seems like a review, but there are some gold nuggets that I am glad to now know. I am committed and serious to this now, though I also know I need to find work in the mean time. I just don’t want to loose focus.
On a side note, World or Warcraft can suck meh balls. Inside joke, offence intended to those who play WoW.
Well it happened. Wasn’t sure if we were going to stop there but it happened to be random of us seeing other people we knew so we decided to go in. I had my eye on one of the ladies all night. Not sure if it was the alchohol or the outfit she had on, but she was beautiful. One of the girls came and sat down with us to try and get a dance. I asked her how many creepy guys she has to deal with.. she said “you mean guys like you?” then she laughed and said she was kidding.. didn’t expect that kind of answer but was funny.. I then made her dance with someone who needed a dance.
Woke up from a good dream this morning too. Was like a highschool,college setting. Was sitting at a table with about 15 other people and we were reading this book outloud. This random girl came over and sat down with us as she was late to the reading. I was on the end so she had sat down next to me. We talked for a sec and she had said she knew me and had heard of me and how I was. I had no idea who she was. Was very weird. I teased her a little bit then woke up. Not sure what it meant, but I wanted to write it as it was one of thos vivid dreams I have once in awhile.
Wow. Last night I wanted to make sure I went out and had a few drinks to just wash this last week out of my mind…. What actually happened was I got my ass drunk and ended up with a va-jay-jay in my face. Couldn’t have asked for a better night. Best friends really do come through when you need them the most. Thanks.
Finally went out here in Bend. Had a vodka martini.. very strong.. feeling good atm.. one more day in CLT tomarrow. Kinda sad about it but also happy. Also my bro’s BDAY, happy bday man, I appreciate you! ok..about to pass out. night blog.
