Closed July 8th, 2011 by Vincent
I see you from over here being stunningly beautiful.
I see the waves crashing into you carrassing your every curve.
I see you change just a little bit each time.
Sometimes you are happy and bright.
Sometimes you are calm and quiet.
I just watch you from afar.
I want to get the courage to come walk with you.
Even the sun gets to kiss you,
Yet I cannot even touch you.
Just give me a sign and i’ll be there.
I want to be the rock in your beach.
Holding tight with you against the waves.
If we can brave the storms together,
We can be together forever.
My Beautiful White Beach.
Closed June 26th, 2011 by Vincent
Recently I heard someone close to me say something that was powerful.
Why be with someone if you aren’t going to lay with them.
Now, years ago, I wished this was said so I would have understood something. I remember my best friend would sometimes fall asleep on the couch and I remember his wife coming down and waking him up to come to bed. I never understood why. If she hadn’t come down, it would have only been a few more hours til she was to wake up for work anyways, so why? If it happened every night I could see her getting mad, but it wasn’t a regularly occurring thing. I have heard similar things with other couples where the woman would come wake the guy up and bring him to bed too.
It is nice to wake up in the morning with the warmth of the one you love next to you. It is very comforting. I wouldn’t want to wake up with my love in another room sleeping either. I never saw it as if I was the one that was being abandoned from my bed, so I never got it.
You know you have found someone that truly loves you, if they come and get you and make you come to bed. If they don’t ever come get you, it will be the beginning of the end.
Closed May 17th, 2010 by Vincent
Seems I get a lot of people wanting my advice, or just want to talk to me. I seem to be one of those people that everyone wants to tell their secrets to. They all seem to trust me with their thoughts. With good reason, as I have no problem keeping it to myself.
I don’t seem to think like others though, as I say what ever I want when I want and I don’t care what others think about what I say or do. Maybe they enjoy that I have interesting views on things. Or maybe I just have one of those voices, that sooths or sounds trusting, or something.
With advice though, I have the same problem as everyone else: I should listen to my own advice and do the things I tell myself. But we all seem to not take our own advice. We need someone else to tell us what we are already thinking. As if it gives us permission to do those things.
Why can’t I have someone like me to talk to?
Hm, I guess I already do.
Closed April 29th, 2010 by Vincent
Sometimes we get an idea. An idea to do something, or go somewhere, or to meet someone. There seems to be two types of people. Ones who don’t think twice and just do, and the others that sit and try to make a calculated thought about it.
The ones who don’t think twice and just do. Are the risk takers. They are the ones that seems to be the more successful ones. The ones others look up to. The leaders. The ones that have the most fun in life.
The other, calculated ones. Are the ones that dont make as many mistakes. Are safe. Are the ones you can depend on. They don’t seem to go any where in life because they are always too busy thinking about the things they want to do, that they never actually do them. If they actually do finally decide, most of the time it’s too late.
Things change too often for us to not take chance. Take a risk. Yet we all want to be safe and not get hurt. We miss out on too many opportunities in life to not take risks. We are scared of the unknown. We feel we wont know what to do once we do it. What we will say if we meet a new person, what we will do once we go somewhere new, how we will do the new job we got.
The real problem is not taking a risk and failing. It’s taking a risk and it being successful.
Take a risk today. Worst feeling is, not knowing what it would have been like.
Closed April 27th, 2010 by Vincent
I know nothing in life is easy, and nothing is handed to you. You have to work hard for what you have and what you want in life. All my life, I have just let things happen to me, and so far everything has worked out in the end. But I am ready to take control and make it happen now.
I am about to quit something I love, something I am good at, something that takes up a lot of my time. I have made a name for myself and people look up to me. I am the best of the best, but I cannot do it anymore with my new path I want to take in life. I have support and I am willing to make this sacrifice. Maybe later on I will come back to you. I know I will crave you, like an addiction. I have to keep strong.
Life always seem to do this to me. When I am going good something bad happens, well not just something, but everything. All at once. The opposite happens too, when everything is bad and wrong and miserable, I get a bunch of good things all at once. I made up my mind to change, and I have this new opportunity now. I also got offered another opportunity and now I have to make a choice between the two. Maybe I will just take a taste of the latter.
Short term goal: Profit.
Long term goal: Move.
Closed April 16th, 2010 by Vincent
Well, that was an adventure. Haven’t been to the movies in ages and I got to share it with someone special which made me very happy. We went and saw Kick-Ass, or as my ticket read Kick-A** lol.
Was a decent movie. I didn’t expect as much blood as there was. Had a lot of neat things that I haven’t ever saw in a action movie, ie Mindy. Makes me look at 11 yr old girls differently now!
Was quite odd though, was a quiet movie really, just showing a dork trying to act out his passion. Then all the sudden this little girl comes into the picture and slices peoples body parts off and stabs and shoots people. Was intense.
Favorite scene was testing how it felt to get shot.
Closed April 6th, 2010 by Vincent
It’s funny that you would go for a guy that cuts himself, considering all the scars you have on your body.
It’s funny that you pull the same stunt over and over again.
It’s funny you always go for much older guys… one even twice your age? rly?
It’s funny that the guy you like atm, is as immature as you and you make a cute couple.
It’s funny when I have proof that you lied to me, and you still lie.
It’s funny that you are taking a break to study, but talk to him for most of the day.
It’s funny that you want a normal sleep schedule, then stay up the same hours talking with him, and get up late as usual.
It’s funny that the person you said you liked more, was the one that gave me that video.
It’s funny that you have lied so much that you can’t remember that you never gave me that video.
It’s funny if you would have sent that to me AND him.
It’s funny that you are talking with another guy at the same time as your new one.
It’s funny that you have some real daddy issues.
It’s funny that you have a problem swallowing constantly.
It’s funny that you have abnormal body discharges.
It’s funny that I gave your dad all of this information.
It’s funny that I am going to come visit you in California, even after all of this.
1 Comment March 21st, 2010 by Vincent
I am obsessed.
I cant help it.
You have me warped.
I keep wanting to know more.
I find out more.
I want to stop.
I don’t want to know anymore.
I am afraid of what I will do with what I know.
Of who I will tell what I know.
Will it hurt you?
Will you even care?
I don’t want to be obsessed.
I am going to push you out of everything.
I am going to make you suffer.
This will end my obsession.
Goodbye.
Closed February 27th, 2010 by Vincent
When we are young we all do this. We are stubborn. We dont listen to anyone but ourselves. We dont want help from anyone because we want to prove we are an adult and can be self sufficient. We get this immense feeling of freedom at 18 that just makes us want to rebel against everything…
We all need that immature new adult life, where we make mistakes, try new things, love, have your heart broken, get into trouble, loose close family or friends, make new friends, live on our own, etc. It helps further define who we are as people and sharpen us to be a real adult, with responsibilities.
Getting closer to 30 though, it seems we all have this time when we start to become more aware of how we are as a person. What we want in life. What makes us truly happy.
The more that we become aware of how we act and what we do, the more mature we become.
It’s fun, cause looking back over the past 5+ years, I know I did this, I know people told me I was wrong, and I didn’t listen to them. Now I find myself telling the younger generation the same things and those people don’t want to believe it either. I hope I can be there in the next 10 years to have a laugh with them as they realize the same thing. They will become self aware and thus mature as well.
Becoming self aware is a sign of real maturity.
Closed February 25th, 2010 by Vincent
One of the moments in life that changed the way I think.
I was at work one day. A older guy came in, prolly around 60~70. As I was helping him, we talked.
He asked if I was married. I remember chuckling and I said, ‘I am only 22′. He went on to tell me how long he had been married. Something like 50 years or something, I don’t recall the exact number, but stopped dead in his track and looked at me, stared sincerely in my eyes and asked me.
‘You know why I am still married?’
The look in his eye, the way he asked that. I was confused and curious. I still remember it clearly.
His answer was powerful.
‘We both are too stubborn to leave each other… That my boy, that’s called love.’
I still think back on that. Too stubborn to leave each other. What does that really mean.
When ever I meet a new woman, I ask myself that. ‘Will I be too stubborn to leave this one? Will she be too stubborn to leave me?’
Love is an interesting emotion. It can feel different for different people. It makes us feel happy, sad, and angry. Yet, we all, deep down inside, long for it. We all want to be loved, and to love someone. To grow old and enjoy life together. To have a family of our own, whether that be kids or animals in the family you share.
I may not be at that point in my life to settle down. The thought it nice though. I will work on finding someone I am too stubborn to leave first. Then go from there.
Will you be the one?